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Friday, February 16th, 2007

Subject:Dum dum DAAAAHHHH!
Time:11:11 am.
Mood: anxious.
Yup, I'm still alive.

Yup, I had a cool Valentine's Day.

Yup, I had a snow day Wednesday.

Yup, I don't want to go to work.
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Thursday, December 7th, 2006

Time:5:31 pm.
Mood: low self-esteem-ed.
I don't like me.
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Saturday, December 2nd, 2006

Subject:I set my clocks early cause I know I'm always late.
Time:5:16 pm.
Mood: frustrated.
What the hell is the point of being in a relationship when you can't even see the other person?

Ok, let me rephrase that.

People seem to think that I am constantly with my boyfriend. Which is true. But that doesn't mean for a second that we actually spend time together. The only 'alone' time that we have is when we're sleeping in bed. That's just about it. Then, God forbid there's a time when we actually can hang out for a short amount of time before we both have to go to work, he gets called in early. I really don't know how much more I can handle of this shit. I dont't see things looking up too fast. We never have the same days off, and when we do have a day where we actually can do something, it always gets screwed around somehow.

On top of this, I'm having the worst stomach pains of my life for no reason at all. It's been going on for 4 days now. The worst started yesterday. It's not a stomach ache, it's like someone's stabbing me in the stomach.

Make it stop.
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Thursday, November 16th, 2006

Time:9:31 pm.
Mood: content.
Well, everything is going great on this side.

School's ok, work's ok, relationship great, etc.

Eric is awesome. He bought me flowers when I got home from the city this weekend. I just have such a great time with him. Whatever time I am with him, at least. I'd like to take a trip soon with him. Maybe to the city. That would be fun.

I just cleaned my room and it is wonderful.

That's about it.
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Thursday, November 2nd, 2006

Time:9:13 pm.
Mood: sick.
Ugh. Kill me now.

I feel like shit. Physically and mentally. My head is pounding. So much pressure.

My whole relationship deal...ugh.

I don't know. There's times where I can't get enough. And then there's times where I just need time. I feel like I'm not being understood, or maybe I'm just missing something. I don't know. At this point, I want to crawl into my bed and sleep.

That's it.
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Thursday, October 12th, 2006

Subject:We all just want to be big rock stars.
Time:5:15 pm.
Mood: tired.
Dear journal,

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Why?

Because I said so.

I'm going through so much bullshit at my job. I suppose it's my fault in some ways, but not really.

I just can't stand doing what I'm doing anymore in that place. It's boring, I don't feel challenged, and it just plain sucks.

It's kinda weird. All I want to do with my life is own my own restaurant. I'm young yet, but I always keep in the back of my mind that opening my own place is coming faster and faster, and I'm not doing a damn thing about it. I feel so uneducated when it comes to doing this kind of thing, all I want to do is see an existing restaurant behind the sceens. Then I'll get more of an understanding for it. I can hardly live on the money I'm making let alone have enough money to open my own place.

I don't know. It's all a game.

I don't have the energy to rant anymore. Back to class.
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Tuesday, October 3rd, 2006

Subject:So far away for far too long.
Time:4:10 pm.
Mood: uncomfortable.
Yes, I am still alive. Just busy as hell.

I suppose there isn't too much going on on this side. I'm going to Italy on Spring Break this year with the Delhi program at SCCC. That's freaking awesome, that's for damn sure. I'm also going to the Hotel Show in November, where I'll be able to see all of my Delhi people again. Psyched.

I dunno. I fit into a size 6 now. A bit snug, but I'm not done losing weight. I've never been a 6 in my entire life. So excited.

I have to go to work at 5. Yeah...that's no fun.

I'm actually really tired of my every day routine. It's so boring. I go to school on Tuesday's and Thursday's in the morning/afternoon, then I work Tuesday night along with every other night of the week except Thursday and Sunday. Thursday I have off because I have a night class, so I really don't have a day off at all. Sunday is the only break in the action. Before work on any day that I don't have school, I end up sleeping until about 1 and then having to go into work at 3. It's a huge waste of a day. But if I'm up, I don't know what to do. Eric and I go out sometimes before work, which is good. I like that. But then it's right back into the regular routine of going to work, getting out, sitting on the couch and doing nothing until about 2 when I go to bed. What's open at 11:30-12:00 at night? We're usually not hungry after working around food all day, no other sourses of entertainment are available that late, so we take the uncreative route and not do anything different. This frustrates me. I would love to just do something a little different, preferably with Eric. We always make plans when we're at work, but then once we get out, the motivation's gone, and one of us doesn't feel like doing anything. I'd like to maybe get food or ice cream or something...just something different. I'm so sick of the same routine.

Wow. Rant?

Otherwise things are going ok. Eric and I are doing really well, which I'm psyched about. I really think we're on the same level at this point. Cool shit right there. I dunno. It's been a while since I've actually had a boyfriend, but I can honestly say that I'm glad I took the job at Vin Santo's, otherwise I wouldn't have met him and known how awesome he is, and how he just brightens up my day. He's always there for me, and he's so thoughtful and sweet. How'd I stumble upon this?

I'll knock on wood.

Ah, I dunno. I'm hungry, and I need to get ready for work.
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Tuesday, September 19th, 2006

Time:12:04 pm.
Happy Talk Like A Pirate Day!
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Thursday, September 14th, 2006

Time:12:22 am.
Mood: high as a kite.
Oh, yes.

It is a great and stressful time of my life. I'm going to school full-time and working full-time, along with keeping everyone happy in the mean time. It's rough, but I'm still having a great life.

I'm sitting here in my own apartment on our new furniture, watching our big screen tv on surround sound, my girls are chilling out in the living room, my guys are playing darts in the dining room. All of us, high as hell, not only with herbal health, but just being high on us. Life is crazy right now, and I'm living it up. I'm so excited about my life, I can't wait to get my restaurant, but I want to live one day at a time. It's awesome, everyone around me is someone I love, and we all support eachother. It's so great.

And I'm pretty high.

I have school all day tomorrow, it's my only day off of the week, and I have a night class at 6. So, I'm going to school, or working. It's ok though. I kinda like my night class so far.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...stuff.

Woo woo...yes.

OH NO!!!

MY FACE!!!!
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Wednesday, September 6th, 2006

Time:12:23 am.
Mood: tired.
Ah...I'm feeling like crap.

School started, it kinda sucks. Especially having to go straight to work after it. Today was 9-11:30 straight.

Tired.

Throat swollen.

It's all good.

I think Eric and I might go on our first date tomorrow night. Heh. After almost 2 months, we're finally going to somewhere without anyone else, or working together. That'll be nice. I have to nap during my slight break to make sure I'm going to be awake after work.

Ahhh...I'm making no sense. It's time for sleep.
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Monday, September 4th, 2006

Time:1:17 pm.
Mood: complacent.
Ditto.
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Saturday, September 2nd, 2006

Subject:Sometimes it's a sad song.
Time:1:59 pm.
Mood: apathetic.
Well, kiddies, this is me being the mature one. I am living my life exactly how I want to. I'm not 'in love' yet, but that's because I want to make sure my heart isn't going to be thrown away again. And I think this time, I'm making the right decision. Eric makes me feel wanted, he's hillarious, my parents love him, my entire family loves him, and I really like him. It's nothing I'm going to rush into right now. What happens happens, and I'm not going to compete with my past anymore.

I'm glad you're happy. I'm being totally honest. I'm glad you've found someone to keep you happy. I'm done with comparing my life with yours. Time heals all wounds, and it's just going to take a bit more time to make me forget what happened.

I'm not going to say I'm in love with someone unless I really, truely mean it. I've been stupid in the past, not only with the obvious, but with other relationships also. I really want this one to work.

The only reason why I write this is so that everyone can know that I'm finished with the past. I'm not competeting with anyone, I'm just living my life.

We had a good run, kind sir. And now, I think it's time to leave it alone.

As always -
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Friday, September 1st, 2006

Subject:Baby, I'm moving on.
Time:5:26 pm.
Mood: content.
Well, everything is going quite well on this side. Going to dinner at the best restaurant ever, Vin Santo's, with my buds. I'm going to have a wonderful dinner by my man, Eric. It's so nice having so much in common with someone. We work together, go to school together...we kinda see eachother all day, every day. It's challenging sometimes, since we don't have much 'alone' time, but it's nice to have someone hold me at night...that means something to me.

Charity moveed out (thank God), and Marty is officially moved in! Very exciting times around the house. We just ordered brand new furniture and it's going to look gerogeous in here now. No more white trash.

Well, I have to go make myself beautiful for dinner. Catch ya on the flip side!
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Monday, August 28th, 2006

Subject:Don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me?
Time:1:56 pm.
Mood: devious.
OK SO HERE WE GO.

Katie is in a GREAT mood right now.

</sarcasm>

Let's see, what's going on in my life...

Work!

I work a lot! I work...a lot. But it's a great job. I love it. Especially the people I work with. Which brings me to my next point...of working with someone you're 'seeing'...or have been for a month. It's kinda fun, though sometimes I can't work with him. I suppose that's what happens when two chefs get together. And you spend all your time with them. It's hard, since all we really do is work together every night, come back to my place and hang out, only to do it again the next day. The only day we actually can do anything is Sunday, but that is usually reserved for our families. (It's nice to finally find a family man.) And the best part is, mom and dad enjoy his company. I think my dad would rather hang out with him than me. Which, I guess, is a good sign? Ah well.

It's nice to find someone that can make me laugh. Not just a small laugh, but a laugh that comes from my stomach. It hurts sometimes. Which is awesome.

School's coming up very soon. I think I can handle work, school, and relationship. Awesome.

Saw James Taylor on Monday. No doubt about it, the greatest man who graced this earth. I got 4 feet away from him during 'How Sweet It Is' and the rest of his encores. Got some wonderful pictures also. He makes me feel all warm and tingly inside every time. I <3 JT.

Ah...what's next.

So...none of my pants fit me anymore. It's almost embarassing. It's like wearing a paper bag, they just kinda...fall. But it's not over yet! I plan on losing at least another 10 pounds. But that's my goal. That'll happen after the first of the month, since Marty and the man are joining my gym. It'll be the gym every day after we get out of work...at 11 or so at night. Cool beanz.

Come to Vin Santo's! It's good shit!!!

Can you handle it?
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Monday, August 14th, 2006

Time:1:54 pm.
Mood: confused.
Ah...

I'm confused.
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Tuesday, August 8th, 2006

Time:1:55 pm.
Mood: content.
Alright. So here is my life up-to-date:

I have an amazing job. That's absolutely not an exaggeration. I work with the most amazing people, the job is aweseome, we all work as a team and that's what I love. No one is higher than anyone else. It doesn't matter where you work in the kitchen. We're all friends, we hang out every night after work, even the older people. It's so much fun. I really would love to start training for other stations, such as some hot side. But it's hard to since the nights are so unpredictable. I suppose for now I should just sit and shuck oysters and be content with it. But it's not as easy as that, either. It's a demanding job, and I love it. The owner is a great guy, he takes care of his employees, and he hangs out with us too. I don't want to work for any other company.

I've been doing a lot of hanging out with new people. I really like making new friends. People I've known for years and never hung out with are now asking me why they didn't meet me like, 5 years ago. I'm done acting like I have to impress people. I act like myself around everyone, and that makes people comfortable enough to act like themselves around me. I love that, because I don't have anything to hide. I don't want to be guessing about anyone if they don't have to guess about me.

I now fit into a size 8, as opposed to the originally squeezing into a size 10. I have a lot more self confidence, and maybe that's why I'm acting more like myself lately. I'm really proud of myself about this diet thing. It's probably one of the best things I've done in a long time. I actually feel like I look good now. I've had people tell me that I've had to have lost at least 10-15 pounds. I don't have a scale, so I don't know for sure.

My room mate is moving out and my brother is moving in with me and my sister. Awesome times approach in the future.

It's just a crazy life. You have to take one day at a time, but do what you want, because you only live once. The opportunities that you're offered may be the ones that change your life forever, that's why you should take every one. Don't be shy, just do what you want, and you'll be so much happier.
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Tuesday, August 1st, 2006

Time:2:53 pm.
Mood: stressed.
Ok. Help me.
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Wednesday, July 19th, 2006

Time:10:01 pm.
Mood: depressed.
Busy. Stressed. And just plain sad.

That is my life as of late.

I can't help but think that I attract bad luck.
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Friday, July 14th, 2006

Time:2:26 pm.
Mood: disappointed.
Ok, everyone.

On the count of three.

1

2

3

Katie's the biggest dumbass alive!!

Yeah. That's basically all I have to say.
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Wednesday, July 12th, 2006

Time:1:31 pm.
Mood: so confused...
Wow.

Just...

Wow.

What kind of trouble can I get myself into?

Well, we'll find out soon enough. I've already started.
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